if you don't know me by now-you will never ever ever know me

crazy music makes me feel sane-when it stops i can't breath
my stomach aches when i am alone

i've got a bad feeling about this

i need to break free of the monotony
i need to break free
my best friend and worst enemy-him or me-both fill each position full-time
close your eyes and just settle
i've got a bad feeling about this(TBS is making me sane right now)

i dont think i am ever capable of having a true best friend
i dont think i could ever like anyone enough after fully figuring them out and that makes me nervous
there has to be someone out there that is a completely wonderful person-i think there is,but i am so horrible that i cant see the good in others
everyone i know has flaws and i hate that-i do too, but i dont expect much of myself
i love my friends and then something clicks every time and i focus on their flaws for a while-i get over them-but for a while i hate them-i hate being this person
i got a haircut last night-i think i was hoping that it would be so differant that it would change me completely-not so much
people tell me that i am the best drunk ever-that is because it is not me-sometimes it feels that it is more me than the sober me-people even have a name for my drunk alter-ego
im glad i dont have an addictive personality
it has never come easily with us-always a challenge even when its not
someone pick me up
carry me
a life coach would sure come in handy
whenever i hate myself the most i stare into the mirror-i think that i am looking for her to respond and tell me how to fix me
i only question everything when we are apart-but that is the most common status
some days it is perfect
i love the perfect days more than fixing the bad ones
there is no possible way you could love me the way you claim to
your (in)actions prove otherwise-i used to think that you were the only one that could love me
i know that is not true-i just think you may be the only one that could love me for this long
maybe time is running out and you figure you could have better
you make it hard to love you
why do i even bother questioning anything- i know we will be together years from now
music=sanity
so i listen to it at all possible moments