it hasn't ended yet-but it feels like it has been over for months
sometimes it is just not enough-i think i trained myself to think i didn't need much attention from him, but lately i know that is not true-but now i don't even want it- it seems that everyone, but him sees how lucky he is-i love him-but i don't love this and i don't know if we are good together any longer-i have changed so much in the past year and he has pointed it out several times-i am happy and proud of the changes i just don't know if they leave room for a relationship hanging on by the threads

i can be alone-it doesn't scare me- i don't want to lose him completely though-that does scare me-sometimes i just want to be friends b/c that is what it usually feels like we are since we never see one another and rarely speak-i am surprized those threads have not ripped yet