clueless forever?

I love and hate that I have no idea where I will be or what I will care about in a year. Everything will be, has to be, differant by then. There are plenty of things that I wish were differant now, but am curious to see how time will change them on its own. I look at friends and wish I could give them a glance at the future, but know living it is the only way to appreciate the present.
I have no idea what I want. I have no idea what I will ever want. All that I know is that what I once worried about is of no concern to me now.
I went out with Kris and Kel tonight, by accident. They were a few blocks away and I invited them over to see the new place. We had about four saki bombs at one place, then a few more car bombs at another. I am still a lil buzzed, but am content. I wonder if I still will be tomorrow.
Most of the time I just wonder if anyone will ever tell me that they love me and mean it. Meaning it is key. I still don't know if I will ever fall in love. I don't think so. I have really liked and cared about a couple of people, but that may be where it ends. I am almost 25. Maybe time is running out for me. That doesn't mean that I will settle. It just means that I may be alone forever.